Judgement of Spouse indicates the Radar is not Infinite

You know that expression, "that's just not on my radar?"  You know, when my neighbor asks me if I know whether the city finally approved the new municipality tax?  Or, my brother asks if I'll be competing in the Charlie Sheen rant contest.  I might say, "No, that's not on my radar" (although in the case of the Charlie Sheen contest, it most certainly is on my radar!).  Meaning, I'm not paying attention to it.

I've been speculating that if I had access to an Infinite Radar, where I could pick up a broad view of any situation, that I'd be in good stead.  Rather than feel irritated that my daughter left her food all over the computer, again, I'd simply dial into my Infinite Radar and receive a more pleasing frequency: "Her mind is on inspiring visions.  Her not putting a dish away is not a sign that she'll never get anywhere in life."  That would be good, right????

So, my question today is:  if I had access to an Infinite Radar would I still be angry that my husband is only working 4 hours a week and earning very little money to contribute to our bank account?

I don't know.

What inspires me about developing an Infinite Radar is that I believe that would result in freedom, peace and calm.  Yes, people, a little bit of calm for heaven's sake!  I'm kind of hopped up over here and could use a little predictability.  Or so I say.  I mean, I did just post the following on my Facebook Page:

Some good advice from Gail Cantor: "The more you are trying to hold all of life together, the less equipped you are for when it falls apart. Life falls apart all the time. Whatever you think is going to stay the same - forget it, it's not."


It's like, I get it at one level, the goal of life is not comfortability, predictability, security.  I'm here to live, for crying out loud!  Not get stuck in comfort and same old, same old.  Living out loud, being self-expressed, following my passions, living it up, does not hold any guarantees.  AND, there is a human game where we use money in exchange for services.  I want my husband to amp up his game so our team is strong!

From my perspective, from my radar which is most definitely narrow in this regard, I don't see why he can't pursue his passions and work half time.  People do this.  They do!  And if he did, I'd get a new pair of shoes!

I'm all for an Infinite Radar, people.  Yet, it eludes me when it comes to my husband's choice not to work.